Consciously, I started watching Sexplanations and getting curious. I watched a LOT of coming out videos, and found I could relate to some. I've watched all five of Hannah Hart's dozens of times! Unconsciously, when I was 14 I got a new Spanish teacher and realised I was talking and thinking about her and my Spanish lessons a LOT. I saw a video that said that when people have a crush, they talk about them all the time. That initial 'what if was truly terrifying.